sit on the roof and watch time fly

it occurred to me the other day that i am 1/8 of the way done my high school career. i don't know why, but that really sort of shocked me.

we're growing up. in fact, we're almost grownups. that's a scary thought. three and a half years for me until i'm completely on my own. a good deal less for a lot of you.

even just thinking about how much has happened in the past year blows my mind. where was i a year ago? i do believe i had stopped going to school at that point. i was sitting at home. sleeping. not eating. i remember being sooo depressed. that was almost definitely the lowest i've been in my entire life. right now, i don't think i've ever been this happy.

it's scary to look back at who i used to be. good little straightedge, homophobic, basically christian april who did everything her mother asked her to do. jeez. i think if me from 4 years ago could meet me today, we'd both be equally frightened.

i'm not quite sure what sparked this thought. i guess i'm just realizing how quickly life is moving.